Chapter 109 - Is It Funny That the Reincarnated Senior Sister Is Also Being Pursued?

"Senior sister, you're not..." Mu Jianli's eyes widened in an instant, wanting to say something. Bai Lian didn't give her the chance, but quietly said, "Jianli, in fact, you can't hide your emotions at all, whether it's in the past life or..." "The charm patterns on my body, are they related to you, right?" "So that's why you feel uneasy and think I would dislike you." Her words felt like a heavy hammer, fiercely striking Mu Jianli's heart. Her face turned even paler, wanting to say something, but felt as if a fishbone was stuck in her throat. Bai Lian noticed her reaction and couldn't help but let out a light laughter. "Jianli, I know you really love me, that's why you want to hold me in the palm of your hand." "You don't have to worry, how could senior sister hate you?" "Senior sister has done so many excessive things to you in the past, and the current situation may be the punishment given by fate to senior sister." "Whatever you do to senior sister is just her deserved retribution." Listening to Bai Lian's self-deprecating words, Mu Jianli suddenly felt a bit stifled. No, this wasn't right. She was the one who had done wrong, and she should be the one to apologize to senior sister! Why did things turn out like this?! Without reason, she felt panicked, as if she was about to lose Bai Lian completely. "Senior sister, it's not like that." "How is it not?!" Bai Lian's voice suddenly rose. She bit her lower lip tightly, tears constantly welling up in her eyes. To hide her crying tone, she could only pretend to speak fiercely, "You've been deceived by me, do you know?" "You've always been just a tool for me, a plaything, an object for me to release my desires!" Her eyelids drooped, forcing back the pain in her heart as she said, "A person like me doesn't deserve..." But before she could finish, she felt her shoulder being grabbed. And then came the sensation of dizziness. When she came to her senses, she found herself being pressed hard against a tree by Mu Jianli. Mu Jianli's hands felt like searing tongs, firmly clamping her shoulders, sending a piercing pain straight to her head, causing her face to contort. "Ouch!" She gasped in pain, but then stubbornly raised her small face, glaring fiercely at Mu Jianli. "Mu Jianli, what are you doing, let go of me!" Mu Jianli lowered her eyes, looking at Bai Lian, who was full of stubbornness. She had never seen Bai Lian like this before. Her small face was twisted with pain— covered in all sorts of tear marks, even the curled eyelashes were adorned with teardrops. Although she tried to glare fiercely, her current demeanor was undeniably more adorable, making it impossible to appear tough and only serving to intensify others' desires to bully her. Even though she had said such heartless words to her, she was crying like a fool. To see her in this pitiable state, it made Mu Jianli's heart ache. Bai Lian felt a bit timid under the gaze, she turned her head and bit her lower lip. "You, can you please let go of me." Feeling extremely self-deprecating. The thought suddenly popped into Mu Jianli's mind. She actually saw in senior sister's face an emotion she had thought would never appear. In her impression, senior sister had always been the epitome of elegance, with an air of carefreeness. It should be her who would feel inferior in front of senior sister. Her eyes tightened. She was not the type of girl who would be disheartened by a few harsh words, nor was she interested in acting out those melodramatic romance scenes. Just as senior sister said, she never hid her emotions. Since she couldn't understand, she would ask directly. Why? "She stared fixedly into Bai Lian's eyes and asked in a deep voice. "Clearly Jianli was the one who did wrong, clearly senior sister almost fell into an irreversible situation because of me." "Why do you have to attribute all the reasons to yourself?!" Mu Jianli's strong voice made Bai Lian's heart tighten. Those bright eyes seemed to be able to see through her soul, making her unable to maintain eye contact, feeling utterly ashamed. She turned her face away, biting her lower lip tightly. Why? Of course, she couldn't continue deceiving herself any longer. Since being reborn, she had immersed herself in the role of the previous life's Bai Lian. She would feel fear from the memories of her past and anxiety when encountering the female leads. In order to avoid being discovered as Bai Lian, she even wore an extra layer of disguise beyond her mask. She thought she could continue in this way until forgetting about the female leads, or until she became a mere pawn in the female leads' revenge. But when she felt Mu Jianli's pure and obsessive love for her, she suddenly broke down. She was not the Bai Lian that the female leads loved. She was just someone sitting in front of a computer, emotionlessly controlling the lives of the female leads, and gaining the memories of an ordinary person after the reincarnation. She was willing to accept a false past, endure the female leads' hatred, but she couldn't bear... their love. Because she was afraid, afraid that the female leads loved only the character she controlled, and not her. If she accepted the love of the female leads, what would happen when they realized she wasn't the real Bai Lian? Perhaps they would despise her even more, resent her even more, and even... become strangers from then on. Every time she thought of that kind of ending, her heart would ache as if being torn apart. From childhood to adulthood, she had never been able to hold onto anyone. Whether it was friends, lovers, or parents. She had experienced too much pain from separation and didn't want to experience that feeling again. If she and the female leads were destined to end up like that, it was better... not to have any expectations from the start. With a thousand thoughts in her mind, Bai Lian's face had already lost its color. She lowered her head, not wanting Mu Jianli to notice her sorrow, but her slightly trembling body had already given her away. Even though she harbored much grievance in her heart, when it came to the forefront, it felt like an insurmountable burden. In the end, it could only be expressed in three words. I'm sorry... "Senior sister." Mu Jianli's restrained voice came from above. Bai Lian confusedly lifted her face, only to meet the increasingly closer visage of Mu Jianli. Then, her mouth was rudely covered. The slightly cool touch on her lips made her widen her eyes in astonishment. "Mmm..." She struggled in Mu Jianli's embrace, tears in her eyes. But her body had already become weak and powerless in the grip of deep emotions. She couldn't even resist Mu Jianli's advances. She became even more flustered, neglecting her cultivation, and as the little remaining air in her lungs gradually depleted, her head grew increasingly dizzy. Mu Jianli's face, which was near her, became even more blurred, and she was now too unsteady to think about anything. She had only just told Jianli how unworthy of love she was. But why... did Jianli still want to kiss her?